DingoAnanas i can't just get an alt… i just can't. trying to get rid of something i've spent most of this decade working on (i.e, the Cardboard persona and the various avatars that persona has across various platforms) that i've grown rather attached to and fond of is like pulling teeth. it's difficult, it's painful and i'd rather not deal with it because of how much it'd hurt.
i spent 3 years fighting for this shit across various brick games, do you think i can just fucking give up and try some new fucking persona and avatar that feels like wearing the skin of a different person and trying to be someone i'm not?
because i certainly don't. i am Cardboard, Cardboard is me, Cardboard is who i am as an internet user, to get rid of all of this in favour of some random new persona would feel like shooting myself in the foot.
it's just too hard to separate myself from Cardboard, literally everyone who knows me on the internet knows me as Cardboard in one form or another.
and i get that it's fucking pointless trying to continue as is because those damn fucking moderators are such fucking assholes, and i should probably save my breath for some other thing, but, like, i care about brickadia, we all care about brickadia in some form or another, and i personally loved every second i spent in multiplayer and i just want that feeling back, that feeling of being accepted, that sense of community, the sense of people bonding over a common interest. sure there's the rockwell discord and this forum, but those are rather one dimensional ways of interacting with fellow users, i just want to interact with fellow brickheads in the way the devs intended, not through independent forums or discords, but through the medium of Brickadia, the medium of freebuilds, TDMs, mucking about with your mates, the joys of learning how to build cool shit in real time with real people. i'm sorry to drag on and on and i'm sorry if the first half of this seemed a bit mean, i'm just writing shit from the bottom of my heart, even if it means being a bit rough, a bit obtuse and a bit unfiltered.