y'know i've been thinking… is it even worth pursuing this intangible and impossible goal? is it even worth mustering up every bit of effort me, my allies and those who agree with me can put into chasing this one thing? you bet your bottom microbrick that if we do succeed in talking to the mods, there'll just be the usual canned response of "we believe Cardboard's ban to be correct, we will not appeal it and that is the end of it, stop fucking pestering us about it!" and we'll be back to square fucking one.
what's the point of continuing if all we get is the same bullshit over and over again? they said they were gonna change the way moderation works, they said they'd actually fix this mess, and yet they never did, while me and many others are still stuck in single player purgatory for off platform shit that wasn't even part of brickadia to begin with.
why should we, hell, why should I be chasing such unobtainable and impossible goals? they clearly don't give a shit about me, they don't want to deal with my situation, even though it was 3 years ago and happened in a community that had nothing to do with Brickadia, they're stuck in this way of thinking and i doubt they'll ever get out of it.
but at the same time i have a oh-so-small amount of hope and determination in me, a hope that shines more brightly than any old spot light and point light component ever could. the fire of determination to see this through, to fight for what's right, to climb onto Rockwell City's highest point and tell the people of Brickadia "i will not be silenced, and i shall be free!"
i'm in two places at once. one place tells me "give up, it's not worth it, just accept defeat and move on", the other tells me "to hell with their unfair practices! go up to em and tell em "f*ck you i won't do what you tell me", tell em that you've had enough and want to fight for your freedom! ", and i'm unsure where to go. i want to fight for what's right and have my account unbanned, and while giving up and admitting defeat would hurt like hell, i feel like it's all i really have left.
this entire thing feels unfair and stupid and i'm so fucking angry about it, yet i don't think i can even reason with the moderators even if my allies put their all into explaining everything and build a compelling argument as to why i should be unbanned.